Just Me Now

Originally posted on mySpace
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Writing and Poetry

I'm a smoker not a toker
but it wasn't always that way
I'm a sober now, not a drunk
but there was a time when
that's not what I would've thunk
It's just that there was this pain
that just wouldn't go away, so
I'd live to party and I partied to live
because my life was a very dark grey, then
I gave up sex and pursuit of the same
for the screwing I was a getting
was only messing up my head
I couldn't sleep for I knew I would die
So I'd pour another drink and
to myself, tell another lie, but
I knew there had to be more
I knew there had to be a way
and I knew that I knew, that
I had no way of knowing what that way would be
But I always looked back to my pile of shit
inspecting the tracks to and fro
their confusing cross stitch
then something happened so unexpectedly
surreal, it crumpled my head
and nurtured my soul and then
the pieces slowly - started to fit
somehow, someway I became
to make sense - of it
S o here I am after all these way
too many years, with
the trails behind me now
of torments and bitter tears
No need for the crutches
upon with which I used to crip
No more need to stumble or fall
just to see my foolish need of it
I am whole, I am complete
I have no needs nor wants now, and
My only wishes and desires are
to spread this love around, yes
I am so God dang happy now
I could just spit

RG Whyte
Jan 24 07

I am therefore I think